"The First Heartbreak Club Meeting"

by Steven Domingo

I’m sorry I didn’t have anything to bring to this potluck
All I have is heartbreak and lies
As you can see me hold back the tears in my eyes
I look up in the sky and ask why?
Why did I ever let your beautiful smile and twinkling eyes 
let me lower my defenses
I was fine in my fortress of singletude
But when I met you, I tore down my walls
I lit up when I saw you
And then we lit up together
Laughed away everything no matter what we talked 
about
Cuz honestly we didn’t talk about shit
But I loved it
I woke up thinking that maybe I’ll have the courage to let 
you know
How I feel until I heard talk of you and someone else
Now I know how Breezy felt
Now I sit here making half truth jokes
To hide my whole truth feelings
And hold my breath when you’re around
And you’re around a lot so I suffocate
With hopes and a shattered reality
While you’re there without any idea
That I keep wanting to see ya
Even though you put a hole in my chest
You know that feeling when you’re the happiest and the 
saddest at the same time?
I’m having the time of my life
When you’re hurting me
We keep seeing each other purposefully
I know ya’ll might be in disbelief
But this is whole truth poetry
And see my heart? It’s on my sleeve
And this is for you
Yes you know who you are
It may be too late
But better late than never
You’re the reason why I keep getting up in the morning
And why I drown in my tears at night
I know you’ve never thought of me in that sense
But I long to see your face and hear your voice
To smell your scent and touch your skin
And I keep wondering if your lips are as sweet as your 
personality
What’s the matter with me?
I guess I’m just in one-sided love
I am one of many in this heartbreak club
And I guess is not much of a potluck
Cuz everyone brought the same thing